I have thought about what am I looking for a job or a mission? That is a key question that I am trying to figure out as I figure my next steps. The difference to me is that a job you do to get paid while a mission is something you have to do and you would do paid or not.
The biggest step is the first one in making the choice to strike it out on your own in some way or have the steady stable paycheck. A job can become a mission and that is a great thing because it means that it brought forth the fire but when a mission becomes a job the reverse is true and the fire is snuffed out. 🙁
I have thought about a job and I just want to be able to see something through from beginning to end and be able to own it whether it is a success or failure I want to say I had an impact. That is something that comes with time but it doesn’t have to be a huge project, a small project that can grow would be enough all you need is seed to nurture to see what it will become is worth the time and effort.
That also means you have to prepare for the consequences of failure. Failure isn’t a bad thing if you have a culture that doesn’t take it as a negative. I think that any entrepreneur will have faced a plethora of failure when they started. You don’t learn by getting it right you learn by getting things wrong and that is part of the journey.
I am not sure what to do, I have a few ideas that I have taken a look at but I need to find a direction I can put everything I have into. I need to take a stand and it is hard when you have felt beaten up. I think of the Hedley song “Invincible” and boy do I love that video which is below. I can relate to the lyrics on a personal and visceral level because of how hard I have personally struggled just to get to the choices I have to make now.
I have had so much failure from jobs that just didn’t work out some because of my own failings and others because of reasons beyond my control but I have hope, I have belief that I can make it whatever direction I take. That isn’t to say I will not fall or fail. I expect it not because I am good or bad but because I am heading into uncharted territory to a world I never thought I would be going into.
This is hard writing about without getting into specifics because I am still figuring it out myself but one good thing is you can always pivot, find unexpected directions to get to where you want to go or new doors to break open.
I promise to keep taking chances.
I promise not to fear failure.
I promise to give everything I have to whatever I do.
I promise to get uncomfortable (cause that way you are doing something new or unexpected).
I promise to be a little better every day.
I promise to start knocking off my bucket list.
I promise to have fun, to enjoy and take to heart the hope.
That is what I need to start on and let’s make sure that 2012 is the year where the only way is forward.