When its time to go

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I’ve been in New Zealand continously since last June and have been using Auckland as my base. For the first few months it was all about finding a job, I’ve now had 3 and the last job I had was full-time which has allowed me to save.

I had hoped to continue working into the next year but I don’t think that will be an option anymore. It got me thinking about what was the most important thing to me right now. I’ve been traveling without a sense of urgency, its been about how do I keep this ride going instead of what am I doing as I wander.

It’s time to flip that upside down and travel with a sense of economy and urgency instead working just to work or not enjoying what I am doing. What this has shown me is that I don’t want to be dependent on a corporation and instead of slowly creeping up the mountain I need to run jump and take risks. What being in Auckland has revieled to me that I want to fight and write. I need to be in a place where I can do that, strip everything else away and get back to that.

If I get back to fighting I’d hope to get into the ring by year’s end. I have a lot of work to do before then but I know I can do it. I’ve been taking my time in developing the world and its time to press fast forward and damn the risks. This is the learning process for me it is time to take any small story and write and eventually the story I seek to tell will come.

I haven’t really been living here even though I have and when the writing was on the wall about my job I saw cheap tickets back to KL at $289 NZDs and had to pull the trigger. I really feel like I am running away, I feel like I could have stayed longer find another job and just keep on going.

It is time to not travel for duration but for a reason, for a need to become the better me. That is the goal the need and the wonder.