I’m so Indecisive (Decision Paralysis Sucks)

indecisionSo on Sunday I bought a plane ticket out of New Zealand and yesterday I was running around just trying to try and manage the chaos and as the cliche says “get my house in order.” It wasn’t easy to buy the plane ticket for October 16th but it was such a good deal that I couldn’t not buy it.

I’ve never been very decisive and my big weakness is the money because I don’t have much if they don’t fire me I’ve thought about just getting out of here. If they don’t fire me now I know the possibility can come at any time. Is it worth living in a situation that makes me misreble or should I just go?

Here is the thing my manager will be leaving for his annual leave in 3 weeks and I know I will be quiting before the year is done me thinks no matter what so its about how much more I can make until that point. Do I value the time I would save or the money I could make and I just don’t know at this point.

I’d loose out on $300 from the ticket I’ve already bought but gain $2300 by staying but that’s on the condition that I don’t have any lows which would lead to me getting fired anywhere which is definitely possible, its always is as I’m a type 1 diabetic with tight control.

Leaving in October would be great because it gives me time to get a new Passport in Malaysia after which I can go anywhere. Although I don’t have any firm plans I would most likely go to Thailand so I could fight again or do Rinjani before the rainy season closes the park at the beginning of the year.

The thing is I don’t have a lot of funds so Rinjani would be costly for me to do, probably around $1000 when you include the plane and route. So if I want to do it this year now is the time. I think about how much time I have and what’s important but I just don’t know what I should do.