Does it matter what I write as long as I write something? I talk about writing more than I write and that is on me as a failure of imagination. I lack disciple and fear failure and that has stopped my progression and my ability to imagine what story I should tell.
To get out of my own way I need to stop thinking about a unique story and focus on an interesting one. To see the chance and possibility and do it not so that whatever is written is that story but that I am practicing the fundamentals of what it means to tell a story in fiction. To hone my balance between thought, action, dialog and description before I consider if it’s a good story or not.
At this point the story is inconsequential, the action of writing even if it’s shit is what makes the difference. So I can learn and gain confidence that I can at least write something that makes sense even if it’s a mess and has a long way to go. No one ever has to see whatever I write, its good enough to just tell the characters story. To focus on the characters is the entire point. The world building must yield to the characters and their story. To write a story without an understanding of a focus is to diffuse the impact and it would prevent me from telling something you can feel.
This is because we feel the story through the characters themselves, if the reader doesn’t care about them, why would they continue to read it at all? In this age of AI and the combination of unparalleled information, that is stolen by AI to enhance their own capabilities we can’t tell new stories. The stories become the product of a sythensis of whatever the AI has captured from online and other media.
It doesn’t matter what I write but to internalize it is hard. How do I let go of my fear and just write their story not what I think I want or should write. I have a really cool location so I am writing a story to explore this space so I understand how it looks since it is fictional but grounded as much as possible in science and narrative structure?
I have a cool place or an idea of one that I haven’t fleshed out and I am gonna write a story about what that place looks like and how it would work. Even if it never gets seen it is enough to allow me to make the place feel reak. To mirror small details that will make the place feel real. Time to begin and keep writing every damn day.