Time to Move Forward

Every day I wonder what story I should write and what should I say. For years I kept to myself to keep myself from being put in a position where people would give a damn. I liked being invisible because it was easy, it made it feeling forgotten easier and made it so I didn’ve …

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The Intimacy of the Opponent that Takes you out of the World

Do you remember the lightsaber duel in The Empire Strikes Back when Vader says “Luke I am your Father.” It’s one of those classic cinematic moments. I’ve been reading a lot about narratives as I am trying to figure out stories I can express in my own world and I keep on going back to …

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Be the Wolf not the Lamb and F*#k the Normal

Everyone is unique and each one of us has our own story. I was never a normal kid and when real life hit me in the face I fucked up continuously and over time that made me feel like I was worthless because I wasn’t like everyone else. When you hit your mid-twenties the pressure …

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Embrace your contradiction to turn the corner

Just because I am weak doesn’t mean I can’t be strong. You have to realize that we each carry the contradiction with us because it’s that interplay between those forces that makes life unpredictable and special. I love the contradiction, the contrast between what we think and how we feel. How different our rational selves …

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With Girls I just have to start trying and believing

It was raining yesterday and me and Pascal we’re at Times Square in Kuala Lumpur waiting for the rain to die down. We were just getting coffee and by then we had probably had this conversation a dozen times in the last 2 weeks but I’m a stubborn bastard and can rationalize almost anything. He …

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Later Kid – You Better come out Swinging and don’t worry I will do the Same

Thanks Pascal for being a brother

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Lots of Acquaintances Few Friends

We are connected to the world and the meaning of friendship not only includes the people we know but who we know on Facebook and a multitude of other channels. What is a friend though? According to the power of Google a friend is: a person with whom one has a bond of mutual affection, …

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I dug the hole and its time to climb out

So every battle we face leaves scars some that are painfully visible and others that remain hidden from view. I can’t stay where I am because there is no future there just pain and sorry. Do I have to climb out of this deep deep hole by hand? Since it was created by me if …

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Falling off the Edge and Getting Back Up Stronger

I’m sitting here after having had the worst night in years and while I won’t go into my stupidity it made me realize that I want to live but I have to do it on my terms. I can’t let expectations be debilitating on who I am working to be. They have killed my ability …

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Facing the future with swagger

Facing the future also means not being trapped by your past and I have been running from mine for years. I’ve gotten used to being alone and independent and while it’s been great it is no longer enough. I can’t just stick to the same old routines and think that is going to somehow change …

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