I’ve been beating this drum for the last few years, stay in a place, spend as little as possible, find something anything to keep busy and then get out. The only real change I had was when I was living and working in New Zealand and that didn’t end well for me with a crappy …Continue reading "Finding a new Beat"
Every day I wonder what story I should write and what should I say. For years I kept to myself to keep myself from being put in a position where people would give a damn. I liked being invisible because it was easy, it made it feeling forgotten easier and made it so I didn’ve …Continue reading "Time to Move Forward"
Everyone is unique and each one of us has our own story. I was never a normal kid and when real life hit me in the face I fucked up continuously and over time that made me feel like I was worthless because I wasn’t like everyone else. When you hit your mid-twenties the pressure …Continue reading "Be the Wolf not the Lamb and F*#k the Normal"
Just because I am weak doesn’t mean I can’t be strong. You have to realize that we each carry the contradiction with us because it’s that interplay between those forces that makes life unpredictable and special. I love the contradiction, the contrast between what we think and how we feel. How different our rational selves …Continue reading "Embrace your contradiction to turn the corner"
Thanks Pascal for being a brotherContinue reading "Later Kid – You Better come out Swinging and don’t worry I will do the Same"
We are connected to the world and the meaning of friendship not only includes the people we know but who we know on Facebook and a multitude of other channels. What is a friend though? According to the power of Google a friend is: a person with whom one has a bond of mutual affection, …Continue reading "Lots of Acquaintances Few Friends"
I’m sitting here after having had the worst night in years and while I won’t go into my stupidity it made me realize that I want to live but I have to do it on my terms. I can’t let expectations be debilitating on who I am working to be. They have killed my ability …Continue reading "Falling off the Edge and Getting Back Up Stronger"
Facing the future also means not being trapped by your past and I have been running from mine for years. I’ve gotten used to being alone and independent and while it’s been great it is no longer enough. I can’t just stick to the same old routines and think that is going to somehow change …Continue reading "Facing the future with swagger"
When you live in shame you are not really living you are surviving but not experiencing. I have been guilty of that for my entire adult life. I forgot what it meant to be alive, to enjoy going out or just talking to your friends. I have a great family but I am not close …Continue reading "Waking up and starting to live"
My friend was writing down 50 things he was grateful for and since I’ve been in a bad spot mentally recently I thought I would steal it and see if it would do any good. I am grateful for: Having had friends I am grateful for my family Being able to travel For having th …Continue reading "I am grateful for…"