I used to think that I needed to be like everyone else. A decade ago I was hunting for work and wasn’t able to have anything stick. That was my fault, I was so focused on the normal I didn’t realize that I had other options. I always focused on where everyone else was with …Continue reading "A future sought"
Every day I wonder what story I should write and what should I say. For years I kept to myself to keep myself from being put in a position where people would give a damn. I liked being invisible because it was easy, it made it feeling forgotten easier and made it so I didn’ve …Continue reading "Time to Move Forward"
Do you remember the lightsaber duel in The Empire Strikes Back when Vader says “Luke I am your Father.” It’s one of those classic cinematic moments. I’ve been reading a lot about narratives as I am trying to figure out stories I can express in my own world and I keep on going back to …Continue reading "The Intimacy of the Opponent that Takes you out of the World"
Everyone is unique and each one of us has our own story. I was never a normal kid and when real life hit me in the face I fucked up continuously and over time that made me feel like I was worthless because I wasn’t like everyone else. When you hit your mid-twenties the pressure …Continue reading "Be the Wolf not the Lamb and F*#k the Normal"
Just because I am weak doesn’t mean I can’t be strong. You have to realize that we each carry the contradiction with us because it’s that interplay between those forces that makes life unpredictable and special. I love the contradiction, the contrast between what we think and how we feel. How different our rational selves …Continue reading "Embrace your contradiction to turn the corner"
It was raining yesterday and me and Pascal we’re at Times Square in Kuala Lumpur waiting for the rain to die down. We were just getting coffee and by then we had probably had this conversation a dozen times in the last 2 weeks but I’m a stubborn bastard and can rationalize almost anything. He …Continue reading "With Girls I just have to start trying and believing"
Thanks Pascal for being a brotherContinue reading "Later Kid – You Better come out Swinging and don’t worry I will do the Same"
We are connected to the world and the meaning of friendship not only includes the people we know but who we know on Facebook and a multitude of other channels. What is a friend though? According to the power of Google a friend is: a person with whom one has a bond of mutual affection, …Continue reading "Lots of Acquaintances Few Friends"
So every battle we face leaves scars some that are painfully visible and others that remain hidden from view. I can’t stay where I am because there is no future there just pain and sorry. Do I have to climb out of this deep deep hole by hand? Since it was created by me if …Continue reading "I dug the hole and its time to climb out"
I’m sitting here after having had the worst night in years and while I won’t go into my stupidity it made me realize that I want to live but I have to do it on my terms. I can’t let expectations be debilitating on who I am working to be. They have killed my ability …Continue reading "Falling off the Edge and Getting Back Up Stronger"