It was raining yesterday and me and Pascal we’re at Times Square in Kuala Lumpur waiting for the rain to die down. We were just getting coffee and by then we had probably had this conversation a dozen times in the last 2 weeks but I’m a stubborn bastard and can rationalize almost anything. He …Continue reading "With Girls I just have to start trying and believing"
Thanks Pascal for being a brotherContinue reading "Later Kid – You Better come out Swinging and don’t worry I will do the Same"
We are connected to the world and the meaning of friendship not only includes the people we know but who we know on Facebook and a multitude of other channels. What is a friend though? According to the power of Google a friend is: a person with whom one has a bond of mutual affection, …Continue reading "Lots of Acquaintances Few Friends"
So every battle we face leaves scars some that are painfully visible and others that remain hidden from view. I can’t stay where I am because there is no future there just pain and sorry. Do I have to climb out of this deep deep hole by hand? Since it was created by me if …Continue reading "I dug the hole and its time to climb out"
I’m sitting here after having had the worst night in years and while I won’t go into my stupidity it made me realize that I want to live but I have to do it on my terms. I can’t let expectations be debilitating on who I am working to be. They have killed my ability …Continue reading "Falling off the Edge and Getting Back Up Stronger"
Facing the future also means not being trapped by your past and I have been running from mine for years. I’ve gotten used to being alone and independent and while it’s been great it is no longer enough. I can’t just stick to the same old routines and think that is going to somehow change …Continue reading "Facing the future with swagger"
When you live in shame you are not really living you are surviving but not experiencing. I have been guilty of that for my entire adult life. I forgot what it meant to be alive, to enjoy going out or just talking to your friends. I have a great family but I am not close …Continue reading "Waking up and starting to live"
My friend was writing down 50 things he was grateful for and since I’ve been in a bad spot mentally recently I thought I would steal it and see if it would do any good. I am grateful for: Having had friends I am grateful for my family Being able to travel For having th …Continue reading "I am grateful for…"
Every day I am reminded about how alone I am. I see everyone make connections while I remain an island, a barren wasteland so far removed from the rest of existance that I am at the edge of memory fading into the fog. I am but the dead man walking, just a waste of a …Continue reading "Is it worth it or should it end"
I am the guardian of my soul, the arbiter of my thoughts and reactions to the waves, the dips and valleys that life crashes upon my shore. I am alone in the dark, my soul is the prison of my mind, a single light among the more than 7 billion others. That might as well …Continue reading "Both the Prisoner and the Guard"